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[24 Feb 2005|12:15pm] |
I've moved to http://stevenatz.blogspot.com if anyone was wondering
I'll still post here if I have any deep and profound thoughts I don't want to be so public with, but apart from that, you can consider this journal closed!
steven14606's livejournal: 4th March 2003 - 24th Feb 2005
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[09 Feb 2005|04:13pm] |
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I got a haircut ...
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[31 Jan 2005|09:16pm] |
Howdy.
( lj-cut )
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[28 Jan 2005|09:44am] |
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Evaporative cooling system broke. I can't sleep when it's hot. So until they come around on tuesday afternoon to fix it I'm doomed to 2 hours of sleep a night. Dooooooooooomed. :(
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[26 Jan 2005|02:17pm] |
I reinstalled adobe audition yesterday. I also went and stole the mic from the other room to test it out. Yeah, the moral of the story is they're both computer mics meaning they invariably suck balls.
But I decided to get out my crappy balls acoustic and screw around making up shit as I go.
Steve - Acoustic 5 Track Thing (0:34/452kb)
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[26 Jan 2005|01:54am] |
i spend like 2 hours customising firefox, and after a couple of months EVERY fucking thing goes default.
pre and post format. it's REALLY annoying to configure every damn extension and quirk that you have tailored to your needs.
Anyway
Tonight was good. Me, Jason, Marsh, Rob, Downs, Jess got together to go to the local pub for a few drinks and to see the kickass cover band (yeah cover bands can be kickass), passionfruit pulp.
I scared marsh's parents unintentionally...I think they find me as a total rebel for some reason. Infact I'm sure they've probably told their almost-21 year old son not to hang out with me or something. Infact, I'm pretty sure of this.
We got to the pub at 8. Then I called flakky who lives 1 min walk away and left a voicemessage asking if he wants to turn up to party.
[01:23] spetznatz: flak ya fgt :O
[01:24] spetznatz: sifn't reply to my phone call
[01:26] mR_fLaK: i was at work
[01:26] mR_fLaK: fker
[01:26] spetznatz: nour
[01:28] mR_fLaK: got home an hr ago
[01:28] spetznatz: for fucks sake
[01:28] spetznatz: i swear
[01:28] mR_fLaK: and then heard ur msg
[01:28] mR_fLaK: which was like..static for the first half heh
[01:28] mR_fLaK: i was like...wtf
[01:28] mR_fLaK: then ur voice cleared up
[01:28] mR_fLaK: and i was more wtf
[01:28] mR_fLaK: in this case
[01:28] mR_fLaK: wtf its steve
[01:28] spetznatz: i spend like 2 hours customising firefox, and after a couple of months EVERY fucking thing goes default
[01:29] mR_fLaK: lol
[01:29] spetznatz: yeah, good cover band, australia day figured you might wanna come up and party
[01:29] mR_fLaK: moanared
[01:29] mR_fLaK: woulda
[01:29] mR_fLaK: :P
[01:29] mR_fLaK: but i was working
[01:29] mR_fLaK: woulda quite happily in fact
[01:29] spetznatz: haha :D
[01:29] * mR_fLaK cries
[01:29] spetznatz: :(
I drank about 5 pots which was about the average going. Enough to have a small effect, but nothing major at all. We're all mature and over drinking to get trashed. Cept, downs..he still likes to drink a lot. Which is great, cause he says wonderful things when he's drunk. And he's my new "not afraid to dance and let go when a good band is playing a kickass song" buddy. And you could tell I was his.
Being australia day tomorrow, they played a few aussie songs. Actually. As for the band, they were excellent. Except I think I'm getting old or getting too out of the mainstream music scene. I didn't recognise about 7 of the songs they played, yet everyone else knew the words. I worked out one was hoobastank's the reason, which believe it or not, I hadn't heard before. But yeah, I was dumbfounded and kinda glad. Pop music sucks.
Part of the annoyance came in their last 3 finishing songs. After rocking out to the darkness they announced an australian song. They'd already played john farnham which was awesome actually, earlier in the night. So we were HOPING for down under, thunderstruck or khe sanh.
They played khe sanh. Yeah it kicked ass. The 5 of us joined arms and shouted, and were joined by a bunch of other randoms in our chanting in the crowd. How awesome.
Then they played some australian song I didn't know. I hadn't ever heard it before and nor had most of the crowd it seems.. damn.
The final song, which we all suspected to be down under. Was a new powderfinger song...brand new..and I hadn't ever heard it before. Quite a few people got into it, but it was uber-formulatic pop-rock to me and I didn't find it great at all unfortunately. Even though I like powderfinger.
Apart from these qualms, the band was still a lot better than any other one they have on regular rotation these days.
My ears rang on the walk home. I'm not really tired, but I'll probably go to bed soon. I don't know how I'm getting to bundoora tomorrow...I suspect I'll get a morning call from jane, waking me up and saying she's gonna pick me up. Better than a poke in the eye with a burnt stick I say.
Oh and my dad ended up working all day instead of half the day and half of us working on my car together. And he didn't even mention it, nor apologise to me for it. That was kinda saddening.
Anyway, night!
-Steve
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[25 Jan 2005|01:15am] |
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[20 Jan 2005|05:31pm] |
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radradrad
Where's nat? I've been up since 9, I'm tired and want to talky. :(
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[18 Jan 2005|10:11pm] |
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today I woke up, had just right for breakfast. you feel better when you wake up and have breakfast. I tested and proved it these hols.
hmm. ray wanted to play civ3, so i did. and finished off the celts this time. tomorrow we take on the english. we're now attacking with stuff advanced as tanks, nice.
THIS is what THIS SITE thinks I'm supposed to look like if I was black.
I had spaghetti marinara for dinner, which is good cause we've been having nazi-ultra low fat stuff lately 'cause mum wants it.
Some fag wanted me to join his development team for some thing. He'd pay me too, but his team's idea will never be popular. Maybe back in 1996.....i told him this.
Jane got into marketing at rmit. I'm glad I didn't stay at rmit. rmit computer science went down THIRTY ENTER POINTS. meaning usually the top 12% of people's yr12 results can get in, but now it's FOURTY-TWO percent. Most uni courses don't go above 20 percent. It was a big enough thing to make second page in the paper D:
The Arcade Fire album is good.
Anthony is talking to me on msn now. I'm gonna go, cya
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Edit: ( This is a story about last july I posted in a forum just then. It was mildly amusing so I'm sticking it here too... )
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[18 Jan 2005|02:02am] |
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dave came over today
i talked on vent with ray and played civ3 with him
dad made curry and the rice sucked, but it was hot which is good
my brother got into aerospace engineering
my sister almost made me cry with laughter at an impression of my dad she did
i played with a winamp djing plugin but realised I couldn't use it for lack of 1 piece of simple hardware
i meant to go out running like i haven't been in ages, but ray stole my time
i spoke to nat for a while tonight
i also read a couple of threads that weren't all that exciting
holidays are a weird and awful creature, goodnight!
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[16 Jan 2005|06:53pm] |
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Why can't any site seem to stay up in the last week? As you all should know, livejournal was screwed for a long period of time yesterday. But that's just the tip of the iceburg that the big titanic internet ship crashed into. I paid my good money finally to somethingawful and it decides to go down that night, and over and over throughout this week. It's never gone down since I'd been reading it for a year. Geegee. Ausns is down right now, and was also earlier in the week. Deviantart hasn't responded a couple of times for hours at a time, and at night OCAU is intermittent at best. That's basically my entire internet!
Okay, I sound like I'm complaining just a little too much over something so stupid. But if there's somewhere to complain, or bitch about something trivial, it's with all the other emogothindiefgts here :D
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Today I played civ3 listened to albums during.
Beatles - Abbey Rd, NOFX - Pump up the Valuum, Queens of the Stoneage - Rated R, Red Hot Chili Peppers - By The Way, Interpol - Antics, Jay-Z - Black Album, and The Arcade Fire - Funeral.
As you can probably tell...I played for a while. It's good to listen through album after album sometimes as I move my persian civilization to conquer those pesky arabs. I'm sharing a continent with only the ottomans now after my initial arab conquest. They just HAD to have their unique unit at the time I attacked. It's some crazy dude on a horse with double old-school pistols. He has 8 attack, and he fucks my shit up. Here I am using ww1 style infanrty (attack 6, defense 10), and this ass whos civilization is about 300 years behind is showing me up just because of mofo double pistol horse guy.
So I like, invaded the other side of his civ by sea so I could pillage his horse supply. That went well. What didn't go so well was his plan B now he had no horses was to pump out a tonne of che guevera style guerilla warfare units that are terrorising my men left right and centre. Plus my artillery fucking misses all the time and.....okay you're all asleep now, except maybe anthony because he knows what I'm on about...either way this entry is over.
Later :)
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[13 Jan 2005|12:32am] |
I paid money and signed up to somethingawful yesterday.
I'm so bored in my holidays, it's killing me inside :E
I can't wait till I'm back up in my arms in work again, it seems nothing I'm currently doing is even mildly brain stimulating.
What a waste.
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[09 Jan 2005|05:48pm] |
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Partly due to being a tard and accidently installing 62 bouts of spyware in one hit, I've just reformatted my pc for the first time in a year.
I made a list of 42 programs I need to install. I've done 7 so far in an hour. Configuring to your tastes and downloading takes a while. D:
Be back soon..
( list of programs on my list that I've installed so far )
I still have quite a bit to go...mostly the big programs; multimedia apps and games etc. Argh formatting is fun.
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[08 Jan 2005|12:57am] |
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I've never been good at this.
Edit: FOR A FUCKING GOOD REASON
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[01 Jan 2005|06:25am] |
- Get car up and running finally.
- Get a job I like
- Try and be as happy as I was last year
- Try not to get drunk on a completely empty stomach and throw up in a service station toilet multiple times shouting to my concerned friends to go on without me because I don't want to ruin their night then passing out in a field for an hour only to recover and spend two and a half hours stumbling in the general direction of home until I come to the realisation that home is about 4 more hours walk away as I call an overloaded new years taxi service 150 times.
Shit I already broke one.
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[21 Dec 2004|11:28pm] |
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It's different. I'm propelled into a different universe. She's left on the planet too-close-to-the-sun and I'm gone.
I travel at the speed of light and as a result, time skews. It's as if my stay on her planet existed on a seperate timeline to this one at all. Alike to experiencing dreams, it seems so real when we're there but only exists in the mind after I'm propelled into the awakenness of every day life. Being there is no more yesterday than it is 100 years ago.
To be honest, I haven't consciously thought about the last 8 days much at all. But I can feel it occured and that's all I need.
I dread the following days and weeks. They move on and the feeling of being truly happy in her presence gets filed under memories. Increasing will be those same memories that I'll be running through and dreaming of until I'm back in my element again.
I have nothing to say to her right now, I can still feel her all over everything I am. She sets me free and right now, I hope she can still feel me in her mind.
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[11 Dec 2004|02:44pm] |
I'm still planning on writing a big essay here about my year on new years eve. But until then:
( 2004 )
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[10 Dec 2004|07:38pm] |
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I'm waiting for my dinner. Well, waiting isn't exactly what you do when you don't like the fish that's being served.
I'm waiting for my dinner, listening to a John Frusciante album I just obtained. It's quite good, it's quite upbeat so far and that suits the kind of mood I'm in. It's not a perfect album from what I've heard, but one important aspect I love about it (thus far) is that you can tell he loves his music and he's expressing himself openly through it. For someone who was a drug addled death-warmed-up creature from about 1992 to 1997, to re-teaching himself how to play the guitar again when he rejoined the Red Hot Chili Peppers..you'd have a few feelings to express.
So I'm sitting here waiting - but not waiting - for my dinner, listening to this album, and I decided I'd make this entry. I fly to Nat's place early Sunday morning. She's the love of my current life and there's a magic in the air almost. You know when you were a kid and christmas eve held a sort of magic in the air? Not extreme excitement, but a slowly boiling feeling you can't ignore, one that feels like nothing else? It's not Brisbane-eve yet, but I've been feeling it since this morning.
I remember feeling this way, but not much else before seeing her in September. So I've decided I'd try and capture this odd-but-magical feeling before it goes.
Sometimes I forget it, but I'm pretty damn free at the moment. Humans are quite adaptive creatures and get used to their situations quite quickly. We take things for granted ever so quickly. It keeps us all going, striving for more, so it's a double edged sword. I spent months wanting to be free of the hold study and constant assignments held on me and after initial euphoria, that was it. Maybe people only notice change. Looking back on the last 2 weeks, I can probably conclude I've been happier than exam week, but we don't notice constants, only changes. This is why your new verandah felt so great for the first week but then became "the verandah" from then on.
This feeling I have helps me appreciate the fact I'm on holidays finally after all the work. In the last few weeks I felt a void...I suppose adaptation is harder the longer and more intensly you're used to something; I was so used to having to think hard and work hard most days and nights for months on end to stay afloat and prosper, so a few weeks detox felt strange. Like I needed to do something..to meet some deadline in a few days time. My mother feels this when she goes away on holidays. You spend a couple of years doing constant housework, and you feel like something is missing in your post-housewife holiday relaxation binge.
Being the double edged sword that taking things for granted is, I feel that maybe the sword is tilted too much to one side for most. It doesn't seem people allow themselves enough time to stand back from it all and just admire what you have, and what you have done. It rests your head for an interlude and will probably improve your drive the next time you inevitably feel you need more. Too many people feel guilt in doing such a thing...that anything less than constant drive towards having more is worthy of guilt. But in the scheme of things, resting your head for a day mightn't get you as much as you could have by working it, but it also won't get you a heart attack when you're retiring at 60 and not knowing what the hell to do with all the time now you've amassed all these posessions.
Having said that, being lazy and having no drive for more keeps you weighted down. It corrupts the mind. You can't stare at a tree you planted for 5 years straight preaching that you are truly happy and feel no need to do more. On the grand scale, you have to do your bit in the advancement of civilisation, and on the smallest you need to exercise your head a bit so you don't become stale, or a hippy, or a stale hippy...each of the scales are just as important long term.
So I guess my improvised point in this rambling piece is: If you find yourself working your ass off for your 51st brand new polyphonic, camera, video phone, feeling the need for number 52 a week later; all while your head caves in from the stress then revise what you've done to come thus far, and all you have and be happy for it.
And if you find yourself staring at a tree all day and admiring the beauty, all while doing fuck all to improve yourself or anyone else that ever lived, then I suggest you get off your lazy ass once in a while and try..you'll find that sitting around all day isn't all it's cracked up to be. Moderation is key, along with everything else in the universe.
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